Back Then, I Adored You

However, she knew about it a little too late.

 By the time I realized I had developed feelings for Lu Bancheng, we had already become very distant from one another, and now he already has a girl.

 Xu Wennuan felt a sharp heart pain, causing her to lift her hand up and press on her left chest, but she became even more upset. Feeling crushed in the confinement of her car, she forced herself to shake off her thoughts, started the car, and drove toward her apartment.

 After driving a short distance, however, she felt her chest tighten again. She rolled down the car window, and the cool breeze finally helped her breathe better, but once she could focus on her surroundings, she realized she’d been heading the opposite direction of her apartment. As she was about to turn around at the next intersection, she saw the words “Beijing Bie Yuan,” which was the complex where Lu Bancheng typically stayed at.

 Did I subconsciously drive here because I know he’s back from Beijing?

 Unsure whether or not he would be staying in this apartment tonight, Xu Wennuan sat in the car thinking for a moment before she parked at the curb and walked into the complex. She zigzagged along the pebble road for 10 minutes before arriving at Lu Bancheng’s building. Looking up and counting the floors, she saw his living room light on.

 He actually is here tonight. Should I go upstairs to see him? But what’s my excuse for being here?

 Although she was still friends with Zero, she couldn’t think of a good excuse, because in reality they were strangers. Her lips quivered and she held her leg back and stopped walking. She quietly looked up at the light coming from Lu Bancheng’s living room for a long time. In the end, she looked down with a disappointed expression, turned around, and slowly began heading out of the complex. After walking only three steps, though, she stopped and turned back to look at Lu Bancheng’s window again. Taking a deep breath, she resolutely walked to his building.

 In Li Jiang, the touching words Lu Bancheng had said to Wu Hao had not sounded like lies. When she had been bullied by Jiang Qianqian at the bar, Lu Bancheng had shown up as she had wanted him to. He had escorted her out of the bar and stayed with her for the entire night. And he had whispered so many nice things to her when she had been sleeping. Even more importantly, he had donated his bone barrow to save her father’s life. And as to her livelihood, he had even invested in the spa that she worked at.

 There’s no doubt about how much he cares about me. Even though I saw him with that girl this afternoon, I don’t have to presume that they’re together. It’s only been two months since we last saw each other, so it’s not as though he would have forgotten me.

 I’ve fallen for him. Why not go talk to him? I’m tired of missing him so much. I’m just a coward if I don’t face my feelings…

 By the time she had walked to the elevator door inside his building, Xu Wennuan pressed the button without hesitation.