Chapter 987
She loved him, he knew it all along.
Every word of hers touched him, he picked up her cold hand and held it tightly.
He continued driving, looking in front as the neon lights shone across his face, littering it with color.
Though he had been surrounded by such bustle all these years, it never once belonged to him and he was never obsessed over it.
He had gone through so much all these years, overcoming so many obstacles but he was still alone. He was still that man who picked up his backpack, leaving his hometown to work hard in the city.
Lu Yan’s eyes turned bloodshot, they were somewhat teary as he continued smiling and spoke with a husky voice. “I’ve never been calculative throughout my journey. I’ve never been calculative over how much I’ve put in and how much I would receive in return. Though I didn’t manage to meet my father for the last time before his death, he left a note for me. It was just some simple words, his wish for me to be an upright man.
“I had my first woman when I was 18, or perhaps even earlier. It was to gain a triad boss’ trust. That boss’ mistress had laid her eyes on me, I didn’t reject such a shortcut that was offered to me. Why would I reject her? I was young and vigorous back then, I was going to have a woman in my life even if she didn’t come. I slept with her, pinning her underneath me in bed.
“Women were just like marijuana. I felt really empty inside after venting all of my sexual desires. The unfamiliar faces I woke up to really made me feel sick. I really disliked those dirty, sexual favors but I still continued. With those shortcuts being offered to me, before every deadly encounter, during those sleepless nights, I chose to use up all of my energy on women, living a life of debauchery.
One drop, two drops, three drops… his tears trickled down, blurring his vision.
So it turned out tears were so burning hot. It was burning his heart, he was almost going to be set on fire.
He couldn’t turn back time, he still wasn’t able to make it in time.
An’an.
His An’an.
His shoulders started moving. He hadn’t cried before and didn’t know how men even appeared when they cried. He didn’t know how to release the pain in his heart, he bit down on his lips while clenching his fists, feeling so helpless.
The flowers were all wilting, his world had become colorless.
But he suddenly heard a weak voice. “It’s your responsibility as a father to name the kids.”
Lu Yan was stunned, he quickly lowered his head to see. An’an hadn’t opened her eyes, but her lashes were moving.
A teardrop fell onto her face.
An’an slowly opened her eyes, looking at him. She saw the tear-filled Lu Yan.
She was stunned, the corners of her lips instantly kicked up. She sounded so joyful as she said, “Silly, I wasn’t unconscious. Although my body really hurts, I just closed my eyes to take a little rest so it wouldn’t hurt as much. But I still didn’t lose consciousness, I… couldn’t bear to…”
She then lifted her hand, running her fingers over his facial features so tenderly. “I couldn’t bear to fall unconscious. I was afraid… afraid that once I really do, what’s going to happen to my Ah Yan?”