Chapter 605 - Gave Up
For a moment, Qiao Nan really had a feeling that she was going to breakdown as she could not keep going anymore.
“No, no, you, you are very good, Nan Nan, really.” Miao Jing was flustered, not knowing whether to comfort herself or to comfort Qiao Nan.
At the thought of the cold, harsh words that her daughter said, Qiao Nan’s words of reason felt as soothing as the April spring breeze.
“I’m good, yet you don’t like me?”
“No, no, the person that I don’t like is Zhai Sheng’s girlfriend. If you are his girlfriend, I will definitely like you.” But Nan Nan was not in a relationship with Zhai Sheng. Nan Nan was not that lady.
“Auntie Miao, if I tell you that I am the girl, are you willing to accept me?” Qiao Nan decided to take the plunge since the outcome would be the same either way. She did not want to be a coward anymore.
“Nan Nan, don’t make a joke. Even if you want to comfort me, you should not say this.” Miao Jing smiled bitterly. She did not believe Qiao Nan’s words. “I think I understand what you mean. Nan Nan, Hua Hua and you are right. I have failed as a wife, and I have failed as a mother as well. I have never done anything right in my life. When I should have been taking care of my children, I devoted all my time to be a wife. When my children are grown up and it’s time for me to let go, I try to stop them from leading their own lives.”
Qiao Nan lowered her head and covered her face with her hands.
No, it was not Auntie Miao who failed terribly. It was her.
She did not understand why nobody believed her when she told the truth. Both Qiu Chenxi and Auntie Miao did not believe her words.
“Auntie Miao, in short, if you really feel that what you did yesterday was for the best interests of Brother Zhai, and that he should accept your kind intentions, from then on, please hold your head high in the Zhai family and tell it arrogantly to Chief Zhai that if he did not marry you, he would not be blessed with such happiness. Perhaps, when you see Qi Minlan next time, you should behave like Madam Zhai and tell her that you are the best person to be Madam Zhai, and that you are more suited for the role than her.” Qiao Nan sent the helve after the hatchet, feeling weak in the knees.
Although Qiao Nan said it in a pique of anger, she meant what she said.
Although Qiao Nan’s words sank in, Miao Jing was not confident in doing that.
When she was just married to Zhai Yaohui, as she was not used to the dealings within the political circle, she often made a fool of herself.
She was more suited than Qi Minlan?
No, at least in the beginning, she did not fit the bill.
“Nan Nan, do you think Zhai Sheng will stay angry at me for what happened this time? Will he ignore me?” Miao Jing, who had calmed down, began to worry about the consequences of her actions. In fact, when she felt guilty of her actions yesterday, subconsciously, she already knew that it was wrong of her to do that.
“You are his mother and he is your son. Given that both of you are related by blood, as long as you stop being obstinate and realize your mistakes, Brother Zhai will not ignore you. Of course, Auntie Miao, I am not trying to scare you. If you disregard Brother Zhai’s feelings and introduce another blind date to him in the future, your relationship with Brother Zhai will not get anywhere. It is totally up to you whether Brother Zhai and Sister Zhai Hua will be close to you.”
As a family of soldiers, it was impossible for them to sever ties with each other.
But they could be estranged with each other.
Miao Jing knitted her brows and pondered her words. “Nan Nan, I will think about what you said. You are right. I should have thought about how I should get along with Zhai Hua and Zhai Sheng. Since a young age, they have had a mind of their own. The average children will usually throw tantrums when their parents are not with them, but they were not rebellious at all. I suppose, even for the average children, they will also be upset with my arrangement if they have someone they are in love with.”
“Auntie Miao, it’s good that you understand.” Even though Auntie Miao did not believe that she was Brother Zhai’s girlfriend, she supposed that in this way, Auntie Miao would not introduce other girlfriends to Brother Zhai at least.
“Yes, I understand and feel much better now.” Sure enough, Nan Nan was the only one who could make her see reasons whenever she encountered problems.
Nan Nan was fair and reasonable. She would spell the facts in a straightforward way, unlike Hua Hua, who said hurtful words to her.
“Auntie Miao, what’s wrong with you now?” Qiao Nan felt a jarring headache when she saw that Miao Jing pulled a long face again.
“Hua Hua said such harsh words to me this time and was so fierce to me. I’m worried that Hua Hua…” She was worried that Hua Hua would no longer treat her as her mother.
“Hey, Auntie Miao, why aren’t you afraid when you are being self-assertive? Who do you take Sister Hua Hua for? She is a smart person! You are her mother. That’s why she said such harsh words to you without beating about the bush. She wanted you to feel the pain so that you can realize your mistakes. If you were not her mother, she would not care that you are being silly, or that your behavior is affecting your relationship with your son. This is what family members do for each other. Family members will remind us when we make mistakes and they will stay by our side no matter what.”
“Then what about you? If your mom and sister repent for their mistakes, will you forgive them?” Miao Jing asked naturally.
Qiao Nan pursed her lips. Her eyes were gloomy. “Auntie Miao, can I not answer this question? What I want to say is that not everyone in this world can repent for their mistakes. Some people just will not change. What’s more, some people simply don’t feel that what they did is wrong. They feel that it’s the faults of other people.”
Since her mother and Qiao Zijin did not feel that they were in the wrong, there was no way that they would repent. In that case, there was nothing for her to forgive them.
“Well… It’s my fault. I shouldn’t have brought up this topic. Don’t be upset.” Miao Jing felt like smacking her lips. She had heard of Ding Jiayi and Qiao Zijin, and knew of their wrongdoings. She had even seen it for herself.
This pair of mother and daughter still had not realized their mistakes.
“Nan Nan, why is the daughter from the Shi family staying at your place? Shouldn’t she be staying at the Qiu family’s residence?” Shi Qing was Qiu Chenxi’s relative. Was it suitable for her to stay at the Qiao family’s residence?
Qiao Nan pressed on her cheeks that felt painful. “Auntie Miao, Shi Qing is a good girl, unlike Qiu Chenxi. You must not lump Shi Qing together with Qiu Chenxi or even the entire Qiu family, especially Qi Minlan.”
As for the problems in the Shi family, though other people would learn of it sooner or later, it was inappropriate for her to reveal the details.
“Alright, it’s fine as long as you know what you’re doing.” Since Qiao Nan knew what she was doing, Miao Jing would say no more.
Qiao Nan found it both funny and annoying. “Auntie Miao, do you know what you are doing then?”
“Don’t worry. I won’t make Zhai Sheng go for blind dates anymore.”