Chapter 179 - Mommy, I Was Wrong!
During those few nights, he was feeling drowsy in the hospital bed, and Shen Qianshu looked after him every night without sleeping. In his half-conscious state, he saw Shen Qianshu hugging onto her design sketches and crying. His heart was twisted in pain, and he thought right then how great it would be if he were dead.
If he were dead, Mommy would not lose her designs.
He was filled with remorse, felt guilty, and could never come to terms with it.
If it were not for his heart disease, he and Mommy would have never met and would have never known that there was actually someone in this world who loved him so much.
“Mommy, I was wrong. Don’t be angry.” Tong Hua lowered his head. His eyes were filled with tears, and his voice was gentle like a child being woken from his afternoon nap. After listening to his voice, one could not help but pull him into their embrace and dote on him.
Shen Qianshu remained unmoved, lowered her head, and continued sketching. Her finger was trembling slightly.
After she raised Tong Hua for so many years, this was his second time being punished.
She could not clearly see what was being drawn on the drawing paper.
Her son was sensitive and stubborn, and some things were like a deadly tumor, always growing in the heart. It was not a good thing.
“Mommy, I was wrong…” Tong Hua was almost pleading. He said, “Can you please not be angry?”
He whimpered and rubbed his nose, and his eyes were completely red.
Shen Qianshu put down her pencil, looked at him in the eye, and said, “Where are you wrong?”
She was really strict. She needed to put an end to some things once they occurred to prevent them from happening again, so as to not get upset further.
“I should not bring up that incident, and I caused Mommy to be sad.”
“Wrong.” Shen Qianshu was cold.
Tong Hua’s tears rolled down his cheeks, and he pitifully looked at Shen Qianshu.
Shen Qianshu was scared that her heart would soften, so she turned around and said, “Continue thinking, and speak after you have thought well.”
She did not speak anymore, and she collected her design sketches and went into the bedroom. Tong Hua immediately panicked. His eyes were almost pleading,
Mommy don’t go, don’t leave me alone.
Mommy, I was wrong.
Please don’t be angry.
However, no matter how pitiful he looked, Shen Qianshu did not even look at him.
The bedroom’s door was gently closed.
Tong Hua bit his lips and became a crying mess.
Mommy, do you not want me anymore?
The bedroom’s door opened once again.
Shen Qianshu took a book, walked into the living room, sat on the sofa, and silently read her book. Tong Hua rubbed his nose, and his white and tender hands wiped away his tears hurriedly. After confirming that Shen Qianshu was in the living room, he calmed down and was less panicked.
She read the book, but nothing was going into her head.
Today’s matters were too sudden.
Both mother and son were caught in surprise.
Tong Hua’s sudden anger and her helplessness.
Her helping to design for Shen Lin had always been Tong Hua’s inner conflict. Knowing that she was not able to hide it anymore, she decided to be open about it and had never concealed it from Tong Hua. She would even discuss her drawing inspirations with Tong Hua occasionally.
Tong Hua’s inner anger had also never been unleashed before.
This was his first time bursting out.
It was really sudden.
It pierced her heart and left her in pain.
Did she do something wrong to let Tong Hua feel so uneasy?
It was already similar to the uneasiness of her abandoning him.
She thought of what happened recently, and the only exception and special thing that happened was Ye Ling.
She had a cold heart, but after calming down and thinking, she finally understood some bits and pieces. Her heart was in greater pain.
“Mommy, please don’t be angry, ok?” Tong Hua’s face was red from crying. It was like his entire being was short of air, and his nose, ears, and eyes were bright red. He looked like a pitiful little baby. It was an exceptionally heartbreaking sight to see.
Shen Qianshu was also really ruthless. She knew that she could not bear but be soft-hearted, so she refused to look up at him.