To My Dear Mr. Huo

She called him again, but he didn’t seem to hear her.

Su Qingsang was a little worried. She took a few steps forward and reached her hand out to pat Huo Jinyao’s back, but realized that he was showering in cold water.

How was he showering in cold water during such weather?

“Jinyao? What are you doing?”

Was he crazy?

Su Qingsang hurriedly turned off the water, then turned to look at Huo Jinyao. It seemed like he hadn’t even noticed her coming in.

His skin was pale and felt icy cold. She didn’t know how long he had been in the shower, standing under the cold water.

Su Qingsang wrapped him up with a towel, and said, “Huo Jinyao, are you okay?”

Something was definitely wrong.

Huo Jinyao finally saw her. He abruptly reached out and held her.

He held her so tight that she could barely breathe.

She didn’t push him away, because he was shaking uncontrollably. She could sense that he was terribly upset at the moment.

“Huo Jinyao?”

She called his name with a very low voice, but he didn’t respond to her at all. All he did was to keep holding her tight.

He was so strong that she couldn’t free herself from his arms. She could only let him hold her.

She wanted to call his name and say something, but she couldn’t speak a single word.

She was worried that he might catch a cold. His skin was as cold as ice. She could feel the chillness penetrating through her clothes.

She held him too and tried to convince him to go back to the room.

“Huo Jinyao, let’s go to the bedroom, okay? Let me dry your hair.”

She wanted to blow dry his hair and cover him with a blanket to keep him warm.

Huo Jinyao continued to remain silent and pressed Su Qingsang’s head against his chest.

She had to pat his back very gently. “Huo Jinyao, your hair is very wet. Let’s go back to the bedroom and let me dry your hair, okay?”

Huo Jinyao lowered his head to look at her. At last, he followed her out of the bathroom.

He had been silent the whole time. She didn’t ask any questions but quietly dried his body and hair.

His body was so cold that she felt uncomfortable. Normally, she liked being held by him because he was always as warm as a stove.

She felt herself choking up. She blew his hair dry as quickly as she could, then put him to bed.

She covered his body with the blanket. He still didn’t say anything and remained there without any sign of movement.

Su Qingsang had never seen him like this before. She had so many questions to ask and so many words to say to him, but at that moment, she was too shocked to speak even a single word.

“Huo Jinyao?”

“What happened?” She looked at him, waiting for an answer.

Huo Jinyao still didn’t move. Su Qingsang waited a long time for him to start talking, but he never did. She gave up at last.

She stood up and prepared to take a shower. Earlier, the wet Huo Jinyao had held her and soaked her clothes as well.

But once she stood up, Huo Jinyao grabbed her waist and dragged her into his arms.

She fell on his chest, then raised her head to look at him. For the very first time, she saw nothing in Huo Jinyao’s eyes.

Those eyes of his were empty and looked possessed.

She felt as if her heart was being pierced by a needle. She couldn’t look at his eyes anymore, so she used her palm to cover his eyes.

Huo Jinyao caught her hand and once again held her tight. He lowered his head and buried his face in her neck.

Su Qingsang thought that he wanted to have sex, but it turned out that she was wrong. He simply held her in that posture, which made her feel very uncomfortable, as she couldn’t move.

Only half of her body was lying on the bed. Maintaining that posture was really hard. Before she could ask him to let her go, she felt a drop of moisture in her neck.

That warm moisture on her neck made her freeze in shock.

What was that? Was that a tear from his eyes?

She tried to raise her head to look at Huo Jinyao, but he wouldn’t let her do that. The warmth and moisture on her neck were slowly spreading to other areas.

She started to feel her heart throbbing very quickly.

She had seen many faces of Huo Jinyao. He could be shameless, wise, sharp-tongued, aggressive, strong, and protective.

However, she had never seen him cry. At that very moment, she couldn’t move even an inch.

She felt more and more tears flowing into her neck.

“Huo…”

“It hurts.” He almost whispered in her ear, with a very low, muffled voice.

Those two words made Su Qingsang tremble.

“Huo Jinyao?”

“It hurts.”

Huo Jinyao shut his eyes tight, but couldn’t stop the tears gushing.

It was so hard to let those emotions out. He had ripped his office apart in two but that hadn’t made him feel even slightly better.

Those issues had existed for a very long time. They had been accumulating in his heart.

All those repressed emotions had finally reached the peak.

He was no longer able to contain them from the moment he had read the report and listened to the recordings.

At first, he was confused and infuriated.

Then, when the anger reached its peak, it transformed into intense pain.

The pain spread from his heart, through his blood, and filled up every corner of his body bit by bit.

It happened so fast that he could not stop it.

It hurt. It really hurt.

“My heart hurts.”

“Huo Jinyao.” Su Qingsang held him tight. “It is okay. It’s okay.”

Huo Jinyao wanted to shake his head. It was not okay. It could not possibly be okay.

How would it be okay? There were no more tears, but his heart was still aching.

He held Su Qingsang so tight that he seemed to be rubbing himself all over her.

He refused to let her go. He was venting out all of his emotions at that moment.

Su Qingsang did not dare to move. She kept patting Huo Jinyao’s shoulder, gently, over and over again.

She rarely had to comfort people. The only way she could think of to calm him down at that moment was through patting his shoulder.

Huo Jinyao was holding her tightly the whole while, and she didn’t try to free herself from his arms.

With that unusual and uncomfortable posture, she lay against his chest, patting him, hoping he would calm down.

She didn’t know how long that lasted. Her body almost grew numb in the end.

When he finally relaxed his grip on her, it took her a while to regain control over her limbs. She got up and found that Huo Jinyao had already fallen asleep.

There were suddenly no tears on his face as if what had happened earlier hadn’t been real.

She looked closer and found no traces of tears on his face.

He always hid his emotions well. He wouldn’t let her see his tears, not even now. She spent another minute staring at his face.

His chiseled face now looked rather stiff. He was in deep sleep, but his body was still very stiff.

Sleep didn’t ease the bitter look on his face. The frown on his face grew deeper than before.

Su Qingsang tried to smooth his deep frown with her fingers, but that didn’t work. His brows were soon knitted together again.

She tried a few times but failed in the end. Huo Jinyao had his brows furrowed the whole time.

Before she gave up at last, Huo Jinyao suddenly moved his lips slightly. She blinked and moved closer to hear him more clearly.