Chapter 1130 - You’re Forcing Me Aren’t You!
Gu Qingcheng’s hands trembled even more greatly now. He felt like his heart was stuffed into a meat grinder, ground so badly that nothing was left now.
“So, Uncle Qingcheng, actually, staying alive isn’t the best. People say that peaceful death is inferior to barely existing. But, I feel that living in loneliness is inferior to… being able to reunite with family after I die! You don’t have to feel like you need to protect me or anything just because you promised my dad that you would take care of me. I’ve already grown up, and I know what choice to make for my own good and my own happiness! I’m not cowardly. This is the conclusion I came to after careful thought!”
Yun Liuli spoke logically, sounding like an older adult who was tired of living and ready for death.
Gu Qingcheng’s lips moved, wanting to say something, but ultimately, he merely pursed his lips and gritted his teeth.
He knew that Yun Liuli was forcing him. He clearly knew… but his heart was still a jumbled mess.
“Uncle Qingcheng…”
“Shut up!” The veins on Gu Qingcheng’s temples were popping.
“Uncle Qingcheng…”
“Yun Liuli, I asked you to shut up!” Gu Qingcheng tugged at Yun Liuli’s wrist, looking furious for the first time.
“Uncle Qingcheng, you used to say that you hoped I’d stay further away from you. Isn’t the distance between life and death far enough away? Any further… I wouldn’t know where to go!” Yun Liuli smiled at Gu Qingcheng, her nostrils flaring slightly, tears constantly flooding down her cheeks.
Gu Qingcheng slightly loosened his grip on Yun Liuli’s slender wrist. He was currently overwhelmed with emotions… He was unwilling to make a decision, but his body was no longer under the control of his rational senses. He pulled Yun Liuli into his embrace.
His eyes were red and watery, and his breathing was heavy.
His heart had never felt so much pain before.
Not hearing any movement from Gu Qingcheng for some time, Yun Liuli pressed a hand against Gu Qingcheng’s abs, wanting to push him away. “Uncle Qingcheng, you’d better… let go of me!”
This was the last thing Yun Liuli could do for their relationship. This time… Yun Liuli had to take him down in one strike.
“It’s not like you can hug me like this forever. Hugging me like this while clearly knowing about my feelings towards you… will only make me more greedy, make me reluctant to part with this world.”
“Yun Liuli, you’re forcing me, aren’t you!” Gu Qingcheng hugged Yun Liuli tightly. “Using your life to force me…”
Yun Liuli’s throat vibrated. Still, she answered, “Mm…”
When she made up her mind to cut off all means of retreat, she hadn’t expected that all her little tricks would go unnoticed.
But when Yun Liuli said these words, she wasn’t lying.
Previously, Yun Liuli wasn’t able to obtain the man she loved, and she felt that she was the only lonely existence in the world. At that time, thoughts of suicide had come to her many times.
It was just that Yun Liuli was inept at expressing her emotions to others. In the dead of night, when negative emotions severely affect her mind, thoughts of killing herself repeated themselves in her head over and over again.
There were even several times when she placed a knife over her wrist.
Yun Liuli knew where the artery was. She also knew from TV dramas that if one slashed their wrist horizontally and was discovered, they’d be saved. So, every time she placed the knife over her wrist, she planned to make a vertical slash.
It wasn’t that Yun Liuli didn’t have the courage to die, but every time she thought about Gu Qingcheng, about how he would wallow in self-reproach or grief after her death, she couldn’t bear to do it.
Even if she couldn’t obtain the man she loved, Yun Liuli had never thought of getting revenge on Gu Qingcheng, much less using her death to take revenge against him. She was simply too lonely.
“If I wasn’t forced into a dead-end by love, why would I force you?” Yun Liuli’s voice was low.
Gu Qingcheng said nothing, merely hugging Yun Liuli tightly.
“Uncle Qingcheng…” Yun Liuli gripped the sides of Gu Qingcheng’s clothing tightly and stood on her tiptoes, and her lips, which were as soft as flower petals, landed on his lower jaw.
He could sense that Yun Liuli was trembling…
Gu Qingcheng held the young lady even more tightly, experiencing a tremendous struggle internally.
“In this world, other than possessing you, possessing your love… there’s nothing worth staying alive for!” Yun Liuli tiptoed even higher.
The duo’s breathing was intertwined. Gu Qingcheng’s breathing was so heavy he almost couldn’t restrain himself from kissing Yun Liuli, but his rational senses forced him to stay sober.
Once he overstepped the boundaries, other than a vagrant life and danger, what else could he bring Yun Liuli?
“If I can’t be with you, I’d rather die!” Yun Liuli sounded choked.
Gu Qingcheng’s throat vibrated, his rational senses defeated. He cupped Yun Liuli’s petite face with his large hand and kissed her.
His scalding thin lips met Yun Liuli’s slightly cold ones that had tears on them. Just lightly touching was enough to make Yun Liuli shiver.
This was the first time Gu Qingcheng took the initiative to kiss her. This made Yun Liuli feel both sweet and bitter. The veil between them was completely torn down, wasn’t it?
Yun Liuli’s hand moved up Gu Qingcheng’s broad and muscular back, her eyes closed, taking a greater initiative.
Some boundaries couldn’t be overstepped…
Gu Qingcheng was originally clear about where the boundary between him and Yun Liuli was, but after the kiss… The kiss completely destroyed Gu Qingcheng’s brain.
She was the girl he truly treasured and loved to begin with, so some things buried in the depths of his heart were triggered.
Yun Liuli was a bold one. Taking the opportunity while Gu Qingcheng’s breathing was messed up, she pushed him backward, and the two of them fell upon the soft and large bed.
With all her courage, the young lady started tugging at Gu Qingcheng’s clothes. However, he stopped her. He placed both hands on Yun Liuli’s shoulders, putting a distance between them.
“Yun Liuli! Stop here!” Gu Qingcheng said, restraining the raspiness in his voice as a result of the lust he was feeling.
The fire in Yun Liuli’s eyes gradually cooled down. She nodded, then awkwardly bit her lip and lowered her gaze, wanting to get up from Gu Qingcheng’s body.
Gu Qingcheng felt panicked for no reason. He gripped Yun Liuli’s shoulders, his throat vibrating. “What I meant is… we can’t do it today. Before you fully recuperate from your wounds, you still have time to consider things carefully. After you’re fully recuperated, if you haven’t changed your mind, you won’t regret it in the future.”
Yun Liuli’s heart was thumping wildly.
In her vision was Gu Qingcheng’s deep-set facial features. From his black eyes, she could tell that he wasn’t merely being perfunctory or coaxing a kid. He was serious… unprecedentedly serious!
Yun Liuli was certain that this wasn’t an excuse Gu Qingcheng made up to reject her!
Yun Liuli’s thoughts of killing herself pricked Gu Qingcheng’s heart painfully, and it also pierced him to his senses.
If Yun Liuli was acting rashly, she had been rash for a very long time…
It had been several years, during which Gu Qingcheng ignored Yun Liuli for nearly a year, but Yun Liuli had never once given up on her feelings for him.
Gu Qingcheng wanted to give Yun Liuli some time to think carefully before they proceeded with the next step…
“I’m a lot older than you, and I’ll grow old much faster than you! In the future, when you’re in your prime, I’ll be an old man! I might not even be able to have a good end, and I might implicate you!”