Chapter 532 - Chu Lui, You’re a Monster
“Chu Lui, Xia Ruoxin said this correctly: you’re a monster. You can let a woman taste heaven, but similarly, you can also make a woman fall to hell in an instant. Chu Lui, women that fall in love with you are pathetic.
“Xia Ruoxin is, and so am I.
“I originally wanted to see your family die out, but I had never thought that that child would still be alive. Anyway, don’t ever think of getting them to forgive you because you didn’t save that child. You just didn’t save her. A man who didn’t even save his daughter, what right does he have to be a father?
“That’s why, Chu Lui, you deserve to be infertile. You deserve to have no children. You deserve to have your daughter call another man ‘Daddy’…”
A ‘pa’ sound resonated in the room, interrupting Li Manni’s speech. The person that hit her wasn’t Chu Lui but Song Wan. Who would have thought that a day would come where the Song Wan, who was always gentle, would slap somebody? She actually really disliked being like this. However, this woman was really going overboard. She had never seen a woman who so stubbornly refused to admit her mistake and blamed everything on others.
Just as if this world had mistreated her, as if it owed her something. She was really too selfish. As compared to Xia Ruoxin, Li Manni made her feel disgusted. She couldn’t stop herself from throwing her hand across her face again.
“Shut up. What right do you have to be criticizing the Chu family? Ah Lui made a mistake. Naturally, he was going to bear the consequences; but you—have you ever admitted your mistake? You think that you did the right thing drugging your husband? For your own selfish desires, you wanted to sacrifice a child’s life; and you still feel that you’re in the right?
“Or do you think that getting pregnant with another man’s child is right? You go on prating about how you love Chu Lui and how everything is for Chu Lui, but I know, you don’t really love him. The only person you love is yourself.”
“Mom…” Chu Lui hastily got up to support his trembling mother. Song Wan could endure everything that she had done before, but she really couldn’t tolerate the hurt she had given to her son and the harm she had done to Rainy.
Her granddaughter was only three-years-old. At that time, she had nobody to save her. She must have hurt a lot.
Every time Song Wan thought about that little child secretly crying all alone, her heart would hurt so bad she felt like she was dying.
Li Manni reached out her hand to cover her stinging face. Song Wan had never said harsh words to anybody, not to mention hit them. This time, she was really angry.
“It’s alright, sit down. Let’s just ignore her.” Chu Jiang hastily comforted his wife. “Anyway, Rainy will be fine. Our granddaughter is really strong, she’s living well now, really cute, and really smart, too.”
Chu Jiang knew that his wife simply loved her granddaughter too much. That time, that child must have gone through a lot of hardships, too. However, all these hardships weren’t even supposed to have happened to her. It was all because of one woman’s selfishness, one man’s helplessness, and a family’s disregard for everything that led to the most innocent child getting hurt.
“Ah Lui, send her away.” Chu Jiang frantically waved his hand, not wanting his wife to receive any more agitation. She was already going through a lot. If it wasn’t because of Rainy, she would probably already have broken down.
Chu Lui stood up and walked towards Li Manni before squatting down beside her. He placed his hand on her face. This face probably rarely got hit, but what about Xia Ruoxin’s? How many times had he treated that woman cruelly just because of her?
“I know that I shouldn’t have married you, but do you know? I liked you before. I liked the you when we first met; you reminded me of Yixuan. I liked the you after marriage; you reminded me of Ruoxin.
“I thought of ways and tried my best to treat you well. I wanted to give you everything because I wanted to make it up to you. I realized that I didn’t love you enough, and I also realized that I couldn’t forget Xia Ruoxin. It didn’t matter whether I was hating her or loving her, it was all the same. That’s why in those four years, I had never forgotten her.
“I felt indebted to you and wanted to treat you better. I was even willing to give up the person I loved the most for you. I waited so many years, and you know? Manni, all these were things that people had never gotten before. I really thought about living with you for my entire life. Even when I knew that the person I loved wasn’t you, I never thought about divorcing you.
“So, why did you have to do all those things? Why did you have to disappoint me?” Li Manni opened her mouth. Her face went numb, making her unable to feel Chu Lui’s fingers. Also making her unable to speak. She could only cry out silently. She reached out her hand to touch his fingers, but the moment she touched him, he suddenly retracted his hand.
“Lui…” Li Manni raised her fingers in the air, bit by bit clenching tighter. She wanted to grab something, but she could only grab the air. When she opened her hands, she still hadn’t gained anything
It turned out that since the beginning, she never had anything. If she had known to be content back then, then right now, would they have turned out differently? Even if Xia Ruoxin had appeared, right now, she would still have been Chu Lui’s wife.
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She refused to believe that everything was her fault, that she was too greedy. What Song Wan said was actually very true. The person she loved the most wasn’t Chu Lui, but herself.
It was just that how could she be willing? How could she be willing? These were all clearly hers; obviously, they belonged to her.
“Lui, if I say that I know I’m wrong. Will you give me another chance? If I say that I’ll never do those things again, could we start over
again?”
Chu Lui stood upright and sneered. “Do you think it’s possible? Manni, from the first day you drugged me, it was already impossible. From the day you used a non-existent child to try to kill my daughter, it had already become impossible.”
“Life will never restart itself. You cannot start again, and neither can I. We all have to pay the price for what we have done. We are all the same; we are all sinners. That’s why it’s impossible.”
Chu Lui turned back around, unable to relax the frown on his face. Chance… he wanted another chance more than her. It was just that if he gave her a chance, who was going to give him a chance?
Li Manni slowly stood up. She looked at Song Wan’s cold gaze, at Chu Jiang’s lips that were tightly pressed together, then at Chu Lui whose back was facing her; never turning around again.
She walked forward one step by one step, not knowing if she had ruined her life or his.
Standing in front of the Chu family’s entrance, she placed her hands on her abdomen. This child still existed, and she didn’t know anymore. Whether she should keep it or not, she was going to gamble with her entire life.
The sky outside was very blue, and yet her heart was very clouded. However, when the sky was clouded, some people’s hearts could still remain clear. It didn’t matter whether the sky was clear or clouded; perhaps for her, there would never be another day where her heart would be clear again.