Chapter 200 - She Was All Alone, So Lonely
It seemed like Si Jingyu didn’t expect Zhuang Nainai to be so emotional.
That year, although Zhuang Nainai had taken the money, walked away, and not passed the test, the test itself was simply a mistake.
How many people in this world wouldn’t be tempted when personal benefits and interests are placed right in front of them?
Moreover, she was merely a young girl with little experience back then. It was perfectly normal for her to be unable to withstand such a temptation.
While looking at Zhuang Nainai, Si Jingyu knitted her brows. Indeed, a poor person’s child does have a strong self-esteem. Perhaps what Mother had done back then had hurt her deeply?
After quite some time, Si Jingyu spoke slowly, “By saying this, I’m not asking you to forgive her. After all, everyone must be responsible for their own mistakes. I would just like to say that my mother never meant to look down on you. I would also like to apologize to you on her behalf.”
Could an apology let Mother Zhuang return back to her normal self?
Zhuang Nainai’s eyes became moist. If her mother’s brain could recover and return to normal, she was willing to forgive everyone.
She stood up and walked out while in a daze. Upon reaching the door, a voice suddenly stopped her, “Nainai.”
Zhuang Nainai turned back.
After deliberating for a while, Si Jingyu said, “I hope that you can keep my and Shi Jinyan’s matter a secret. I don’t want Zhengting and Mother to worry about me.”
Zhuang Nainai nodded.
She wasn’t in the mood to bother about anything else. She merely hung her head and walked out one step at a time.
She was at a loss. Upon seeing her bedroom right in front, she walked straight towards it.
The sky darkened gradually.
The ray of light in the room had also dimmed.
She walked towards the sofa, sat on it, and stared blankly towards the front.
Suddenly, tears streamed down.
She didn’t know why she was so sad all of a sudden. All these years, she had been forcing herself to not think about it. Finally, she couldn’t tolerate it any longer and poured out all her emotions.
If she hadn’t been so young and impetuous back then, would Ding Mengya have not sent people to drive straight into her mother?
If she hadn’t courted Si Zhengting back then, would everything thereafter not have happened?
If only, back then…
What a pity, there was no such thing as “if only” in this world.
Zhuang Nainai buried her head between her knees. It was her first time breaking down.
She seemed to have finally found a point to release all the pain and heartache that she had been suppressing for five years. A surge of emotions overwhelmed her. Zhuang Nainai, who hadn’t cried for a very long time, finally couldn’t hold it back anymore. At this moment, she sobbed quietly.
She clenched her fists tightly while her whole body was trembling.
The house was so huge, but she was all alone, so lonely.
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After the call ended, Si Zhengting walked out from the study room. Upon entering the living room, he realized that Shi Jinyan and Si Jingyu were sitting on the sofa, watching television. In the dining room, the housekeeper was carrying the dishes out one by one. The food was ready.
But, where was… Zhuang Nainai?
He looked towards the second floor puzzledly. Upon recalling that she had sprained her ankle a moment ago, he pressed his lips together, placed his cell phone in his pocket, and headed upstairs.
He pushed open the room door and realized that the room was pitch black. Everything was at a standstill. He couldn’t see where Zhuang Nainai was. Just as he turned around and was about to switch on the room lights, he suddenly heard a quiet, sobbing sound.
He paused slightly.
Si Zhengting turned back in disbelief. After determining Zhuang Nainai’s position, he walked over, puzzled. He switched on the bedside lamp, which was on top of the bedside cabinet and beside the sofa.
Under the faint ray of light, Zhuang Nainai was wiping away her tears. However, as she wiped her tears away, it streamed down even more violently.
Maybe she was lonely, or maybe she was feeling extremely dejected. At this very moment, Zhuang Nainai could no longer put on a fake front. As she raised her head and looked towards Si Zhengting, she suddenly felt the urge to make everything clear once and for all.