Chapter 203 - We Are Not Compatible
“If you can do it, then you would have visited me when I was hospitalized and you would never have gotten intimate with Xia Yuwei, and even have a child with her,” He Xiyan turned her face away. She was getting slightly teary. These were things that happened in the past but every time she brought it up, she felt as though her heart was shaking uncontrollably.
Mo Yixuan’s heart wrenched and his eyes were filled with remorse.
“I…” He paused for a moment, then quickly spilled out an explanation. “I’m sorry, Yan Yan. I was too busy then to visit you. I do care about you. As for Xia Yuwei, I’m not actually in love with her, I only did it because…”
Mo Yixuan trailed off. He didn’t dare to mention the child and his chest heaved violently because he was nervous and also because he had no excuses.
He Xiyan scoffed coldly and she blinked rapidly, forcing her tears back.
She found his words ridiculous and also felt that she was equally ludicrous in the past. Oh yes, he was extremely busy, so busy that he didn’t have time to return home, nor drop her a line. He never had the time to buy her a piece of clothing, nor the time to visit her when she was hospitalized in the emergency ward, but he had the time to find another woman and even have a child with her.
When a man didn’t care about a woman anymore, being ‘busy’ was always the best excuse. She didn’t think that he would still be so uncreative today to fall back on the same old excuse to explain his past actions.
“Yan Yan, I’ll change,” Mo Yixuan noticed her strange expression and he felt as though his heart was in his throat. He knew that his answers earlier were really poor but he couldn’t tell her the truth. The truth was that he always tended to put work first in the past and didn’t really treat her well. He had also fallen into Xia Yuwei’s trap and had intimate relations with her.
He Xiyan sighed. The past was like a scar and each time she lifted the scab, she felt as though she was bleeding all over again.
She shook her head in resignation and said with a sigh, “Yixuan, we were really not compatible.”
Mo Yixuan, “What do you mean?”
He was stunned and his heart was so painful it was just like it was dripping blood. Her words about their incompatibility only intensified the pain. To him, Yan Yan was the most compatible and she was the only woman for him.
He Xiyan pursed her lips and smiled wryly. She looked at Mo Yixuan slightly regretfully, then she slowly said, “I was 19 when I first met you and I’d never dated before then and didn’t know how dating worked. I liked you so I tried my best to treat you well and I thought you liked me too. I didn’t even have any considerations before marrying you. I naively thought that I’d be happy marrying the person I loved. However, I didn’t realize that marriage was a union between two families.”
“I came from a poor family and my parents had passed away long ago. There was no way I matched up to your family but I didn’t have any self-awareness then and ignored the protests of your mother and relatives to marry you. Your mother didn’t like me, in fact, she hated me. After we were married, she had never once treated me well and often scolded or mocked me. When the doctor said that I was infertile, she took out all her anger on me and even hit me on a couple of occasions. I assumed that that was what her temperament was like, but I was wrong. After you brought Xia Yuwei who came from a better family and was a healthy young woman bearing your child, your mother’s attitude changed completely. She had met a daughter-in-law she liked and treated her extremely well, as if she was her own daughter. This shows that she just truly disliked me.”