Chapter 1191 - Admit Defeat (2)
“I can answer you a thousand or a million times, and my answer will be the same. What else can I feel for you apart from loathing? If it weren’t for you, the three of us wouldn’t have needed to suffer so much. The Xi family, would not have turned out like this…” Xi Mushan’s deep voice was heard, and one could hear the unhappiness, and sorrow in his voice.
“From very early on, you knew that I was committed to someone, but you forced Wenna to leave and trapped me with marriage. Now, you can understand that some things cannot be forced. You should’ve lived a good life.”
“I really hate you so much right now! I hate the two of you. I hate you as much as you love each other. I’m thoroughly upset.” Yue Lingsi laughed bitterly. “But even if that’s the case, there’s nothing I can do.”
“There’s karma for everything. You’ll have to bear the consequences of your own actions. I don’t care whether you hate me or not, but I’ve come here to tell you that, Yue Lingsi, there’s no use forcing what doesn’t belong to you. If the two could’ve felt contented with the way things were, we wouldn’t have ended up like this. If you want to blame someone, blame yourself for asking too much and stepping over someone’s bottom line.”
Shen Wenna looked at Yue Lingsi with an indifferent expression. She did not seem willing to say much, so she only looked calmly at Xi Mushan and got up. “I’ll wait for you in the car.”
“Wenna!” Xi Mushan called out, worried that Shen Wenna would think too much.
However, Shen Wenna only looked at the two of them calmly and walked away.
“I’ve got nothing else to say,” she said, and then her frail figure vanished from the pavilion.
In the pavilion, only Xi Mushan and Yue Lingsi were left.
“The person that I’ve always been thinking of has been Wenna. You know this more than anyone else. You contributed a lot to the Xi family, but that wasn’t what I wanted. Doesn’t the fact that I could give everything up to start over again not explain everything?” Xi Mushan sighed and said.
Yue Lingsi smiled sadly. “After you divorced Shen Wenna, I thought that I’d have a chance, yet I used my entire life to prove that you’re a heartless person. No, I should say that you’ve given all of your heart to Shen Wenna.”
“I lost and I was wrong.” She found it hard to face the truth.
How long could she be stubborn for?
“Right from the start, you lost. From the first time I saw Wenna, I’d already…I’d already known I had unswerving feelings for her.”
“But I had unswerving…”
When Yue Lingsi wanted to say ‘unswerving feelings’, she could not finish her words. She did not forget that because she wanted revenge for Xi Mushan’s cruelty, she did betray him. In fact, there had been many times…
“You know about Xinyi’s situation too. It was all because of you. Xiaye isn’t bothered about it anymore, so I hope you can face the state you’re in too. The grudges between us shouldn’t involve the children. I hope that the two sisters can do well respectively, and it’s time for everything to be concluded right here and now.”
“Do well respectively? Can Xinyi be well? She’s like me. She’s lost almost everything.”
Yue Lingsi’s eyes were filled with mixed emotions. She did not know how she should face Xi Xinyi, her one and only daughter.
Those hurtful words were still ringing in her ears. Even though their relationship had calmed down, once some cracks were there, they could never be fixed.
“She’s not like you. She’s still young, so it’s not too late,” Xi Mushan said, “She’s your daughter.”
Yue Lingsi forced a smile. “And yours too.”
“Yes, that’s why I hope that she’ll do well. The same goes for Xiaye too.” Xi Mushan stood with his arms behind his back as he looked at Yue Lingsi. “You probably regret your choices back then now, don’t you?”
“What’s the point of regretting it? If I knew today would come, I might not have chosen to meet you. I hate Shen Wenna. I hate the way she can lock you down by doing nothing at all while I…”
A teary glimmer flashed in Yue Lingsi’s eyes. “But right now, I can only surrender to my fate, so I won’t wish you well either!”
“That’s up to you as long as you think you’ll feel better that way. If there’s a next lifetime, just don’t meet me again,” Xi Mushan finally said that, and then left the pavilion.
Yue Lingsi’s stifled cries were heard…
It was all over. Perhaps, this was truly the end.
She cried for a while before she felt a warmth on her shoulders as a light-colored coat was draped on her shoulders. She turned around and saw that Xi Xinyi had appeared behind her.
“Xinyi—”
Yue Lingsi trembled slightly, unable to help her sadness from spilling out.
Xi Xinyi’s gaze was calm as she watched the teary-eyed Yue Lingsi. Her eyes were filled with mixed emotions.
“You can give up now,” Xi Xinyi said.
Yue Lingsi cried and forced a laugh. “From the moment I met him, my heart’s never lived. Maybe humans just have no respect for ourselves. The more we can’t get something, the more we want it. I tried so hard, but it was just useless…He’s right too. This is a matter between the three of us. There’s no need to implicate you and Xi Xiaye. I was just too narrow-minded and led you astray. I know life is hard for you right now. Don’t go provoking Xi Xiaye anymore. If the two of you can exist in harmony, or do well respectively, that would be a good thing too.”
Do well respectively?
Exist in harmony?
When Xi Xinyi heard these words, she could not help but laugh.
If she really wanted to do all that, it would not be that easy.
She was still figuring out how to get Han Yifeng and her son back…
Mu Yuchen, how are you supposed to help me?
Xi Xinyi did not know why, but she was willing to trust Mu Yuchen. She seemed to see a sliver of hope within him, especially when she received orders for her to work with Qi Lei.
She knew that her chance had come!
“Care about yourself first. Don’t worry about me,” Xi Xinyi responded.
Yue Lingsi smiled bitterly and did not say any more. She waved at the nurse in front of her, and the nurse quickly walked over to wheel her away.
…
The sunny and cloudless weather from the past few days added some heat to the atmosphere. Even the air felt a little turbid.
It was only when a jubilant pouring of the rain came did the air feel crisp and clean again, making one feel spirited.
By the window sill of De Bao, Dongfang Liuyun was lying in the rattan chair as always while she casually flipped through ancient texts. The rain continued to pour outside, and De Bao seemed even more unusually quiet.
No one could be sure how long had passed when suddenly outside the door, the beaded curtains were drawn…