Chapter 39
“I understand that you don’t want anyone to know that you come to see a psychiatrist, especially people you know, but… Xinxin, I’m not just anyone else, I’m Gu Xingyun, the Gu Xingyun who always believed you.”
“But, you, who always believed me, saw me see a psychiatrist, and that psychiatrist was you!” Tang Xin was very angry and her voice became very sharp.
She didn’t want anyone to know that she had come to see a psychiatrist. She only believed Dr. Carl Grafee, whom she had met in a mental hospital by chance when she had been a child.
Sometimes she felt that she couldn’t tell illusion from reality. When public opinion weighed her down, she feared that she would one day become like her mother.
Hadn’t it been said this kind of illness could also be inherited? So whenever she couldn’t stay calm anymore, she had to see a psychiatrist to make sure she was really fine.
She hadn’t seen a psychiatrist for a long time. The last time was when she had returned from the concert tour in South Africa three years ago, and was verbally abused and questioned on the internet. She had withdrawn from all of her performances as she couldn’t bear with it and hence had gone to see a psychiatrist.
However, she had been found out by him! And it had to be the only person who was willing to believe she wasn’t mentally ill!
What would he think of her from now on? Would he believe her again?
“You are too extreme, Xinxin. Be it from a professional perspective or as a friend, I will not do anything to hurt you! Believe me like how I believe you, okay?” Gu Xingyun said patiently.
Tang Xin wavered for a moment, and then shook off his hand, “Let go of me! I won’t come here again, I ask you to destroy all the files you have on me!”
She refused to believe him or to take risks.
“Xinxin, you know that this is not possible! I can help you, I want to help you!” The clinic had its own rules, and the files couldn’t be destroyed just like that, but it guaranteed absolute confidentiality.
Tang Xin saw the sincerity in Gu Xingyun’s eyes. After slowly calming down, she felt a little embarrassed, “I don’t want anyone to know that I came to see a psychiatrist, that will turn things that are not true into facts.”
“I know… I understand, which is why I will only see you as a doctor,” he promised, wishing he could dig out his heart to assure her.
Tang Xin nodded, letting down some of her defense, “I should go back, I may not come again…”
She still couldn’t overcome the barrier inside her, and didn’t want anyone who knew her to know about this.
“Nor do I want you to come, because that would mean that you are doing well and will not question yourself anymore,” Gu Xingyun said with a gentle smile.
“Um, thank you. I believe you are a person with good professional ethics,” and won’t divulge this secret.
“Don’t worry, I won’t.” Knowing that she still didn’t believe him, Gu Xingyun assured her firmly.
“I’ll make a move then, bye.” Tang Xin showed a faint smile and left.
Looking at her lonely back view, Gu Xingyun’s eyes darkened as he suppressed the urge to rush up and protect her.
Tang Xin—the girl whohad always kept her head down and walked past everyone quietly. When he saw her appointment, he was excited beyond control.
If he could have chosen, he really wouldn’t have wanted to reunite with her in this place and with this identity.
Tang Xin walked out of the clinic with a lot of things on her mind. Because she wasn’t paying attention, she was knocked on the shoulder by an oncoming person the moment she walked out of the clinic, and she almost fell.
“Watch where you’re going!” It was the other party who shouted first.
Tang Xin barely managed to stand properly. She raised her head with a hand over her shoulder and had just taken a glance before turning pale. She quickly looked down and wanted to leave.
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