Chapter 84 - Jittery Worries
Qin Yi prepared lunch without saying a word, then looked at the group at the table and said, “You guys go ahead first. I’m heading out for a bit. Don’t wait for me.”
Chu Mohe bit on his chopsticks and looked at Qin Yi with worry. “Yiyi, you’re not eating?”
Qin Yi shook her head. “No, you guys go ahead. I’m not hungry.”
Lin Bai also advised her. “At the very least, have some. Otherwise, it won’t be good for your stomach.”
Qin Yi shook her head. She was not hungry and even felt like vomiting when she looked at the food. She knew her bulimia was acting up again.
But she did not want to tell Lin Qing and the rest. It was not that she treated them as outsiders, but she did not want them to worry.
“You guys enjoy it.” With that, Qin Yi turned and left.
After Qin Yi left, Lin Qing and the others did not touch their chopsticks. They looked at the delicious meal laid out on the table but suddenly had no appetite.
Chu Mohe grabbed his bunny and looked into the distance. Worried, he spoke up. “Hey, what’s up with Yiyi? Why is he not happy?”
Lin Bai frowned with worry. “I don’t know why, but his mood doesn’t seem good.”
Lin Qing immediately turned to Yun Huan. “Boss, do you know what’s going on?”
Yun Huan placed his chopsticks down and replied indifferently, “You guys start first. I’ll go and take a look.”
With that, he took large steps out after Qin Yi.
Outside, Qin Yi blew a cold puff of air and calmed her mood. She did not go far and only wanted to look for a place to calm down.
Meeting with Gao Qing had reminded her of her past and she realized that she had yet to walk out of it, constantly living under the Qin family’s shadow.
Qin Jiaojiao. Qin family. All the people who had a connection with her. As long as she encountered any of them, her heart would waver.
Such a feeling was not good. It felt as though something was controlling her limbs. She yearned to get free but remained stuck and trapped.
It was as though she was still the foolish Qin Yi of her previous life, the Qin Yi she hated to death.
Qin Yi moved her fingers and naturally made the action of holding a cigarette. Just as she was about to raise her hand, she realized that she had already given up smoking a long time ago.
In her previous life, Qin Yi was a huge chain smoker. A few years into the apocalypse, humanity found a plant capable of replacing tobacco. It was strange. Food and necessities were scarce in the apocalypse, but not smoking.
Qin Jiaojiao was the one who had introduced Qin Yi into smoking. But after Qin Jiaojiao quit, Qin Yi was unable to. It was addictive and Qin Yi could not stop. She did not want to stop.
Every time she smoked, she felt as though her mood was more relaxed, so even after being held captive and sullied in the darkness by everyone in the camp, she never stopped smoking.
If not for being trapped in the laboratory, she might not have quit smoking in her entire life. It was only after that she learned that Qin Jiaojiao had intentionally made her hooked on smoking.
Qin Yi’s mind was vexed as she took a pack of cigarettes from the mental space. She drew a stick out adeptly and was about to light it when it was snatched away.
Qin Yi turned back and saw Yun Huan playing with the cigarette with his large hands.
Qin Yi frowned and spoke coldly. “Return it to me.”
Although she was slightly startled, her mouth curved into a bitter smile. Since when did the old Qin Yi influence her to such an extent? One Gao Qing was enough to cause her to lose her cool and sharpness.
It even led her to rely on cigarettes to numb herself and calm herself down.
Yun Huan waved the cigarette and replied indifferently. “Calm down.”
Qin Yi took a deep breath, raised her head, and revealed the pair of eyes that gradually became warmer. “En.”